Tuesday, May 26, 2009

I admit

I think I have totally lost my mind, but I admitted one of my fears to my best friend. I sat there and just blurted it out. I keep telling myself that I think that once I get the house in order, things will fall into place. But deep down, I am afraid of what will happen if it's not true. What if I get everything order and I'm still in this funk? What will happen? What can I blame it on then? I guess I'll cross that bridge when I come to it...I hope I don't have to, I hope that I can get the house cleaned up and organized and then I will be back to myself. Maybe I never will. Maybe I've changed. I figured I would've bounced back by now. I mean, I'm happy, I guess. I get to stay at home with my kids. I finally get time to do those things that I couldn't do while I was at work. I get to sleep in. Well, 1 out of 3 isn't bad. Most people don't even get that. Oh well...we'll have to see. :)


Typically, I would be bored with the rain and would wish for sun. Today, I am happy to see the rain. I'm not even sure why. I am watching the rain fall and thinking about how I could get things done today. I could go downstairs and get some sewing done because I actually have a table set up now. I could pick a bin out of the storeroom and empty it out. I could pick up my book and finish it. I could do any number of things that I need to do...yet I am sitting at the computer, typing and watching the rain fall. I am trying to clear my head...trying not to get overwhelmed. Trying to pick the task that will leave me with the least amount of guilt. I don't know what that is...I should make a list. :) But that will take more of the free time that I don't normally get. I guess I should just get off my butt and do something. So, here I go...

Sunday, May 24, 2009

It's a lazy summer day, but it's not summer...

Today is one of those days that I wish I had a hammock and occupied children. I would just lie out in the hammock, enjoying the day, and read a book. I was all set to just sit on the deck while my 8 year old played outside, but he had to have me do something. I had to draw on the sidewalk with him, then I had to play hopscotch with him. Don't get me wrong, I had fun (but I drew the line at running through the sprinkler), but I rarely get days where I don't have so much to do that I get to sit down. I managed to get him interested in what Daddy was doing so I could run off and get some other stuff done. I got the basement sort of clean, but my book is still glaring at me. Oh well, my sewing area is set up for the next time I get a few free minutes...whenever that may be.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Leave them alone, would ya?

Everyone is looking for their 15 minutes of fame, thinking that it will make them rich. From the outside, being famous seems really cool, but really, it is necessary to follow every step? While I applaud the actions of heros like Captain Sullenberger and Captain Richard Phillips, they did their jobs. I believe they deserve accolades, but I'm sure the attention was very unnerving for them. People like Jon and Kate Gosselin put themselves in the spotllight because of their TV show, but having papparazi chase them to get a photograph is ludicrous. Even if what the media is reporting is true, don't they deserve a little privacy to solve their problems? Who cares if Sarah Jessica Parker and Matthew Broderick are having twins via a surrogate, the fact of the matter is that they are going to have a very busy life (made even more difficult by the hordes of crazy people scrambling to just get a glimpse of them). More importantly, I'm not even sure why it's news. People get pregnant, raise kids, make mistakes, and get divorced every day without even a mention on the evening news. We survive and, in fact, we enjoy the silence. The celebrities are people; they get up in the morning , they go to jobs and eat food like everyone else. Get over it and let them live their lives...please!

When will people learn?

I am so fed up with people and their lack of responsibility. While there are exceptions to the rule, accidents occur because someone wasn't paying attention, didn't do their job correctly, or cut corners. People blame McDonalds for being obese, for Pete's sake people, put down the Big Mac and go for a walk. They blame tobacco companies for their addiction to smoking or illnesses associated with smoking. While I realize that chemicals are added to make it addictive, it says it on the package. If the idea of contracting a fatal disease isn't enough to make you want to stop, it's not Big Tobacco's fault. I am more and more flustered by teenagers smoking and by teenage pregnancy. I just don't get it, are they stupid? Just because Paris says it's hot, doesn't make it right. What will it take for people to step up and say "My bad, I'll take care of it?" or "I may hate my job, but I will do it correctly". It's time for society to turn around and say "I care and I want to make a difference". It's time for results, so let's get going!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009


So as I was sitting here looking up some stuff on the Internet, with the boys in their chair/swing, I heard a loud thump...Dylan has managed to flip himself over in his bouncy chair. I don't know how he does it. I had purposely separated him from the swing (at least 18" or more) so he could grab it. I just don't get it...this is going to be the kid that I have to rescue from the trees, isn't it? He'll be the one that is jumping in the pool as soon as we put the vest on him, while his two brothers (the 8 year old and the other 1 year old) watch in horror. At least we might have a tattletale who will tell us everything. :)

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

When did I...

become a doormat and let my kids walk all over me? My 8 year old just told his buddy to bring his dead charger over and we would replace it. WTF? Since when did I start doing that? He also wants to open up the XBox with another one of his friends. Far be it from me to stifle creative activities, but I'm thinking that opening the XBox isn't something that a bunch of 8 year olds need to be doing. Last night he was trying to throw phrases at me to confuse me (it actually didn't work), like P1 and P2 and memory drive. Uh, excuse me, but I've been building computers since I was your age. When do boys smarten up?


I still have so much to do, but today I really don't care. I'm sleepy and I'm dreaming of a hammock and a sunny day. The twins woke up early from their nap and I couldn't vacuum again (oh drat). I would like to lie down and have a nap, but they won't let me. :) Now, my tasks for the day are now to take pictures of the stuff I want to sell and iron Will's perler beads creations (finding my iron in the process). At least the cable is fixed. Well, I'm off to find the iron, so I can iron the perler beads, so I can clean off my kitchen counter. Here I go...I'm moving...yep, I'm heading out...blargh!

Monday, May 18, 2009

One Thing at a Time...

Here we go again...another week starts. Today there are sooooo many things to do. I have motivation to do the big things (like clean the basement and put away the winter stuff), but I really can't leave the little things (dishes, laundry, general cleaning). Today is one of those days that I have to do one thing at a time to get things done. Feed kids, check. Feed dog, check. Make Will's lunch, check. Get Will on bus, check. Wash cups/bottles, check. Get kids to take nap, take a shower, get a gate, do laundry, clean toilets, clean floors, feed kids again, iron perler bead things for Will - but first find iron, refill diapers, make beds, and get stuff ready for tonight are on the list for the day. Not to mention get the TiVo receivers out for CM Katie and taking pictures of all of the baby stuff that I am selling. And that's all before lunch...all this while taking care of my little darlings...it's going to be one of the days...

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Hello World

I struggled with the title of this because there are just so many things that go through my mind. The first one was Help, I have 3 boys. I mean, I am the only female in my house, unless you count the dog. I'm not even sure where to begin. :) What was I thinking was the next option...but I felt that was sort of derogatory...I love my kids (and even my hubby most of the time) and I'm really never sure what I am thinking half the time anyways. WTF was next because that's pretty much how I look at things (along with SNAFU and KISS). There are many more, but I decided to keep it simple, because that's what I strive to do. There just isn't enough time in the day to get everything done, so 9 times out of 10, I wing it. :)
With 3 boys, what else am I going to do?