Saturday, June 29, 2013

Recharge session and Crossroads.

My mom came up yesterday and we took the kids to see Monsters University.  It was a cute movie, but it just reinforces the fact that my kids are nuts.  :)  They did pretty well, only asking when it was going to be over once or twice - and eating the popcorn and snacks within 5 minutes of the actual movie starting.  Oh, and did I mention that my monthly "friend" showed up in the middle?  Yeah..real happy about that.  What can you do?  LOL!

Then we had lunch, came back home and swam in the pool for a bit.  After which, she took the kids for the night.  Ahhhh...and then it was quiet.  Hubby and I went to dinner and relaxed.  I spent about 30 minutes trying to find my resume.  I am at a crossroads.  My old office posted a position that I could do.  But do I want to go back to work?  I mean, if I knew the kids would be fine in after care or I had other arrangements for summer, sick days, and days off, I would do it in a heartbeat.  But, I don't...and I really don't want to screw up my chance to enjoy the twins' first year in school.  Then the what ifs start...
What if this is my only chance to get back into it?
What if we find ourselves in a financial situation?
What if something else happens?
How about all of the sports?  Equipment is expensive.

I loved my job.  Not as much as I love my kids, but I really did enjoy working.  I was heartbroken when I left.  And then I really loved working from home.  I guess I want it all.  I want to work from home so I can still take care of the boys and the house.  I mean, seriously, why can't it work?  Then I think of all of things that I do and I start to question whether or not I can do it all.  I mean, I volunteer with the PTAs, I chauffeur the kids to sports, I cook, I clean, I shop... Adding work to it seems stupid.  Really, who wants to work?

I do.  I miss it.  However, after listening to everyone complain about the office and the direction that things are going, am I going to enjoy it?

Should I just apply and see what happens?  Should I just be happy to be a SAHM?  I am really stuck...

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

What the doodle?

Wow!  Twice in a month, it must be a record.  I have been a little crazy lately.  I went a little bonkers with the couponing and have now stocked my house for the next month - and saved a bit of cash in the process.  I didn't do anything new - I talked to a friend and read up on the deals at  I certainly didn't re-invent the wheel.  I found out that someone else is leaving the office where I used to work.  Not much I can do...I wouldn't mind helping out, but I have no intention of working out of the home full-time until the kids can stay by themselves or can manage together (or unless I have to).  Not that I haven't before, but I really appreciate the fact that I can stay at home and take care of the kids.  They are now at a really fun age - semi-dependent.  I think we are finally done with pull-ups (of course since I got a really good deal on them and bought 4 packs).  Please don't mistake that for a complaint, it's definitely not.  It's just par for the course.

D has even started kicking in the pool and putting his face in the water.  K, not so much.  We'll get there...just like their older brother.

I have so many things going on right now, I have 3 notebooks to keep them straight.  What's funny is that if I even dare mention them to a "working" person, they would roll their eyes into the back of their head.  I mean, with the absence of an actual paying job, I split my time playing with the kids, doing genealogy research, couponing, scrapbooking, sewing, and planning for the next car trip/mini vacation or sport.  It's really sad, but the crafts take a lot of planning.  LOL!  Don't judge me, I know I am a loser.  :)

Thursday, June 13, 2013

And the summer is here...

I think it's been too long since I wrote, but really, I am busy.  I may not be running my kids to umpteen sporting events, working, or working out, but I am busy.  I have cleaned the house, started crafting like mad, and have been sorting Legos like a crazy person.  My OCD has been on overdrive for about 2 months.  I have now resorted to fixing the dog's callous on her elbow.  She's not fond of it, but I don't care.  It needs to heal so she stops bleeding.  It sounds really bad, but we've been to the vet and she said it's entirely normal because she just happens to lie on that side all of the time.  Now it's my mission to get her healed.

I have been reintroduced to my Cricut.  I loved it before and now that I am learned how to actually use it, I am totally smitten!  I am trying not to buy 87000 cartridges...and pacing myself.  :)  I haven't really bought anything for it recently, so I think that's pretty good...for me.  I have stocked up on other scrapbooking supplies though.  Nothing too fancy.  So books of paper so I can use stuff other than solid card stock.  I have also been stocking up on crafts for the kids.

As much as I loved being a Pampered Chef Consultant, I am really finding it difficult to get back into it right now.  I am still trying, but it's just difficult to fit it somedays.  Ugh.  I did make some money and get a lot of free stuff.  I thought that I could just submit 1 show a month and keep it up, but I'm even having trouble with that.

And, on a sad note, I lost my Grandma today.  It's not like we've been close or anything, but it's still a loss that will be felt for a while.  She was the one that gave me details for the Ancestry work.  She was the one that would buy my sister and I crazy pajamas or sweaters.  She was the one that would buy the kids LOUD and annoying toys.  And she will be missed.  She wasn't in the best of health recently, so it's not a shock, but it's still sad.  I am really sad for George, her son.  He took care of her up until the end.  Even when she stopped remembering things.  He still took her to get her hair done and made sure she had company and family around.  She will be remembered fondly in our home.  And now, she is together with my Grandpa and I'm sure he's happy to see her.  RIP Grandma Sue... :(